If you haven’t guessed already, I attended my Freshman orientation for university this weekend. And it turned my life into chaos.
Freshman orientation is a fancy term for ‘Meet people who are also Freshman, learn everything you’ve already learned on the tour, and sign up for classes’.
At the University of Oregon they have introDUCKtion, which is a ridiculously clever name for orientation. They divide us into groups by major (meaning my group was all pre-Journalism students) and we spend all day getting to know each other. My group, excluding about four kids, was composed of kids from Northern California. To say the least, I was way out of my element (I live in Oregon, and am originally from Southern California). I didn’t really make many friends at introDUCKtion but the kids who attended were less than a fifth of the freshman I’ll be spending the next year with, so no worries. I learned their names and what kind of journalism they liked and in the end, I realized that not everyone who is a journalist is going to be ‘my kind of people’ like I assumed. It was an eye-opener, and I’m more ready for September than I would have been if I hadn’t gone to introDUCKtion.
All the information they told us at orientation (in the forms of panels and plays) was stuff that you have already learned when you went to tour the school as a Junior. One of the friends at introDUCKtion was talking to me and we agreed that there was no reason for us to attend the information sessions because we already knew everything they were saying. However, if you haven’t done your research or attended a tour, I DEFINITELY recommend going to the sessions as they have lots of important information you should know before attending a university.
And then, on the second day, I signed up for classes. Signing up for classes is…stressful. You want to get all your credits in (I already have enough credits to enter as a Sophomore) and trying to find classes that fulfill everything and at times that are available and not having too much on your plate can be really stressful. I was so occupied in choosing classes for the fall term, I did not realize I was taking five classes that are all heavy-intensive courses. So in August, when I can sign up for classes again, I think I’m going to drop one of classes and choose something more fun than brainy.
And that’s kind of how my weekend went. It brought me a lot of stress and it’s kind of freaking me out.
I’ve been kind of off the last few days (and not because my uterus lining is telling me I’m not pregnant) and I think it’s because I’m in that weird limbo of getting ready to completely 180 my life.
Having to figure out my schedule (along with having to explain it to myself and my mother, and having to double guess it again after that) is taking a toll on my brain and no matter what I do to relax, my body is constantly tensed in fear that I’ve messed up. That I’ve done something wrong, that I’m not ready for this step. And it’s terrifying. I feel like crying every four seconds, which I’m pretty sure scares everyone. My first chance to be a real adult and I might have fudged it up.
I guess I thought going to orientation would make me realize how ready I was to take on this new life. But here I am, two days later, with a pit in my stomach and a headache that is screaming, “WHY DID YOU TAKE MATH 106? WHAT IF IT IS THE WRONG CLASS?” and right now, I just wish it was August 5th so I could drop it and take jewelry making or something. But life isn’t perfect and it’s July 10th.
How did university go for you? Were you in this position when you about to go? Please tell me in the comments so I can feel slightly better in my current state of panic and fear. While we laugh at this funny GIF! Now I feel better!
Remember, if you feel anxious and need someone to just talk to about your anxieties, my email firstname.lastname@example.org is always open! I love to talk to you guys and I will always try to give good advice.
Stay classy Internet,
P.S. I will be posting later this week with a fun new post that’s definitely less serious!
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